For a reason

We've all heard the term everything happens for a reason. Good or bad its all for a reason. Even though we don't understand it.

I for one never understood why the things that happen to me happened. Especially when it involved pain and heartache. Why me? Was probably the number one question on my mind.

Then I realized something, everything does happen for a reason. I don't understand the reason yet, but I know its for something big, bigger then what I can imagen.

I realized that evil uses other people to hurt you. This person left scars on my heart, violated my trust and betrayed me. But I overcame it and found that with Gods help I was able to come out a stronger person.

Whatever it is, we cannot keep hanging on to the past. Come out strong knowing that everything shall pass away. That everyone will pay their dues in time even if its not right away.

Stop asking why me? And start asking why not me? With Gods help you'll make it through the storm and cross the desert, because we never get more then what we can handle. So if the storm is a tornado know that you're stronger then that.

Friendship

Funny how time changes everything. How growing up pulls us apart, makes us different and changes us.

Once we were attached at the hips, but the years between childhood and adulthood disintegrated the rope that held us together. As we got older we choose different roads for our lifes. We lost the small things that held us together, forgot what we once had. Our views changed and our friendship began to change.

Now we only remember our friendship when we need something, when no one else is around, and sometimes we all together forget about it.

Friendship is complicated. It's like a  flower, it needs water, food, nourishment, and love to stay alive. Once you stop feeding it and cover it from the sun, it easily begins to die.

We've grown apart and even though we were best friends, in some cases sisters, or favorite cousins whatever the case was we have become strangers. Sharing only the basics of our lives now. We keep secrets, we know nothing about each other and sometimes we're not even comfortable in the presence of each other. Our friendship is nonexistent.

The only thing that holds us to each other now are our memories and the impact we had in each others lives. Friendships where not meant to always last forever, but it was fun while it lasted.

Change

Change is a word I've been thinking about a lot lately. In the dictionary change means to become different.

It's something that I'm striving for. Not that I don't like who I am, but there are things I could improve on. I'm not talking about physical appearance either. I'm talking about a deep transformation something from within, a spiritual change.

It's been a struggle my whole life. To let go and let God do the work. Instead I want to do it all myself, because my pride holds me back (among other things).

I think of the word change and I imagine a huge mountain. Reaching far beyond the clouds with steep hills and rocky terrain. That's when laziness sets in and I think I don't feel like fighting a battle today, maybe tomorrow. Yet, who says I have tomorrow? It could be too late.

Tomorrows are like yesterdays not worth worrying about, because we only have now.

So I will take the first steps up the mountain an hour at a time. Reign in my pride and pray that this time I make it to the top.

Change doesn't come easy.